A Horrible Realization

This past week I started the second session of the Summer Semester at Mercer County Community College. My math class started last Thursday and so far so good. Seems like stuff I should be able to handle and it's being taught by a 60+ year old female. So far it pretty much goes hand in hand with my prior education.

Today I started my Sociology class. The class itself seems fine. But, I noticed two things that really stood out to me...and where I am in my life. The first had to do with the professor. She was telling us about how she got her B.A. at UMass Amherst (or Lowell...or Boston...or one of those places), her Masters at Arizona, and she's currently going for her PhD at NYU. That's all fine and dandy...but from what I could tell she was probably in her early 30s.

Which leads me to my next point. It's a Sociology class...so the 40 of us, at one point, had to explain a little about who we are. Several explained that they were a month or so out of high school. And while I'm far from the oldest one in the class, with the professor only a few years older than me and most of my peers definitely younger than me...I can definitely feel my self worth going down. I'm not saying I should be going for my PhD or even my Masters...but I should definitely be more established than I am. Especially when surrounded by those barely 18.

It's moments like this that I reflect on all of the opportunities I have passed up. First of all was my education. If I kept my head above water I would have received a bachelor's degree five years ago. Not only that, but I also would have extended my goalie career by two years and would have hopefully led the team to at least one win over St. A's in that time.

Basically what it comes down to is this. I would never trade where I am in my personal life. I love Season. I love this house. I love my friends. I love my family. I love our pets. But educationally/professionally I've really screwed up in my life. Now's my time to rectify that.

And on that note, I would like to let everyone know that I got my grades back for the first session. I received at A in Public Speaking and a B+ in US History (Post Civil War - The Present). I will say this about US History........I had the highest grade on every quiz and exam up until the final exam. And prior to that final I was the only one with a B, so I would really hate to see how everyone else did.